Tigger
07-05-2006, 09:51 PM
Hey,
I have been on this site for a few years. Prior to this, I was on the official BBS for a few years as well. I'm not sure if many people on here really know me, but this is the hardest thing ever in life and I'm telling everyone here in hopes that someone will have some helping advice. Anyway, I don't care to explain everything fully but my father was diagnosed with cancer four years ago. A few weeks ago, we were told he has one or two months to live. He's in the hospital, they've taken him off all his cancer pills and now...well you know.
So, at first it hit me really hard. Of course. But, it never really hit me that it was for real. I was in denial, really. Still am sort've. The problem is, I want to make his last few weeks(months hopefully) as happy as possible. I want to be strong for my mother, etc. But, this is really tearing me aprt. My father was someone I always admired and could always turn to, no matter what. And since hearing the news, I can't sleep anymore. Last night I didn't sleep at all. Furthermore, I can't work. I tried but it just makes me horribly depressed and all I can think is that I'm going to get "the call" while at work....
So, sorry guys and dolls, I don't want to bore you further. Just for the first time in my life, I don't know how to make it through this.
:(
I have been on this site for a few years. Prior to this, I was on the official BBS for a few years as well. I'm not sure if many people on here really know me, but this is the hardest thing ever in life and I'm telling everyone here in hopes that someone will have some helping advice. Anyway, I don't care to explain everything fully but my father was diagnosed with cancer four years ago. A few weeks ago, we were told he has one or two months to live. He's in the hospital, they've taken him off all his cancer pills and now...well you know.
So, at first it hit me really hard. Of course. But, it never really hit me that it was for real. I was in denial, really. Still am sort've. The problem is, I want to make his last few weeks(months hopefully) as happy as possible. I want to be strong for my mother, etc. But, this is really tearing me aprt. My father was someone I always admired and could always turn to, no matter what. And since hearing the news, I can't sleep anymore. Last night I didn't sleep at all. Furthermore, I can't work. I tried but it just makes me horribly depressed and all I can think is that I'm going to get "the call" while at work....
So, sorry guys and dolls, I don't want to bore you further. Just for the first time in my life, I don't know how to make it through this.
:(